Benefitting from Nothing

Robyn Hager

Rejoicing the act of

Sitting alone

Because I want to

And sometimes

I won’t let people control my emotions

Because I will

It isn’t fair to think

We all live for happiness,

For other’s happiness

I live for mine

And therefore

I need to separate

Sometimes

Leave the being to be

And the leaving to me

I don’t put up with it

I certainly will not

And I won’t push past you for a seat on the couch

I will find my own spot

Whether it is in the same room or not

We frolic in the desolate night

In piles of white

With 3 beers in our hands

We run with all our might

Tripping off the gleam in the light

And waiting for the sun to once again shine bright

There is no need to fear

In scary states of mind

Because with friends and lovers

There is nothing we need to find

Except maybe

Our own contentment

Maybe that’s all that’s missing

Or maybe

It’s always been right there

Waiting

In his big blue eyes

We can escape all that fear

That lurks behind our ears

A black shadow lurking over me

And when it’s too late to find out

I realize that it is just me.